I'll go down with this ship.

This song has played a reoccuring role in my life for about 8 years now. I am a lover not a fighter. I am a die hard. I don't give up on the people I love and care about.  I always go down with the ship when it comes to all the relationships in my life whether it be friends or lovers.

I fiercely BELIEVE in the relationships I have made in my life...

my marriage is no different.

I believe in forgiveness. I believe it's never too late to go back. (The only part of the song I don't fully believe in is verse 2...  I feel some people do believe you can't go back again, but my forgiving nature says you can, and if you can't salvage the relationship, it's never too late for the truth and the apologies to come out).

I don't want to return to where I was in my life with my husband, I want to move past it and make our lives better. I want the upward spiral that I know we were finally reaching to come. I want us to find a way to work through everything and find happiness with each other, not seperately.

Maybe I am a dreamer, or too much of a die hard, but I believe that sometimes you have to hit Rock Bottom before you can find your way up again. If this is our Rock Bottom, let us hit it and find a way to arrive at the surface together.

I really am going down with this ship.

"White Flag"

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be